Cancer Journey Teeter Totter

Many have likened the ups and downs of living with cancer to a roller coaster ride. For me, now four years after being diagnosed with advanced ovarian cancer - surgery, 38 chemos, two remissions, and two recurrences - I imagine it as more like a teeter-totter. You see, the Lord is my Partner on the other side of the board. When I'm up it is only because of His anchoring power. He is the Ruler of gravity. I'm up there enjoying the view only by His Grace. He speaks in that quiet voice reminding me that I still need Him. Then, at times of cancer stability and intimacy with Him, like this summer - we are balancing on the horizontal. We are face to face, I'm very aware of His presence keeping me in this miraculous level place - defying the odds, and gravity itself!! It's precarious, and amazing, life is so good and such a Joy! Now, I'm on my way down again - I know it will be fleeting, it is only a momentary shift of His weightiness and power. He will be there watching over me the whole time. "Look up to me - fix your eyes on me!" And when my life on this teeter-totter ride is over, I trust that my very good Friend will not just abandon me to crash to the ground while He jumps off. But He will say, "OK, are you ready? I'll take your hand. Let's get off together now...and move on from this material plane to a higher, better one."